Saturday, December 25, 2010

Christmas Reflections

Merry Christmas, and praise God for his gift of JESUS CHRIST that we celebrate today!

Round two of blogging for the day - earlier I stumbled across that nice quote by Dietrich Bonhoeffer, but I can't resist a quick Christmas blurb to cyberspace. It's an ingrained habit, learned from countless repetition since childhood: for me to remember life's significant moments, I have to either talk endlessly about them or write about them. Like studying for a final - without the review, slowly, the little details go. And the little details are what I like to remember.

Like the chill of our still, dark house when I woke up at 7 - amazingly, I was the first person up. Never in my life have I been the first one awake on Christmas morning. Since I'm almost 20, I guess it's about time; still, usually I wake up to the sound of my mom and dad clattering in the kitchen. I boiled water for Russian tea on the stove and brushed my teeth. Greeting the silent, cold morning alone was rather... melancholy. When my parents padded up the stairs in their pajamas, the lights on the tree winked a bit more happily. Christmas truly is about family.

Details like cuddling with my 16-year-old fleece-covered sister - who was wearing Hello Kitty footie pajamas - wrapped in a blanket as we opened our stockings. Watching the yule log flicker, like we do every year, and pretending to feel the warmth from its TV image.

Like my sister parading around the house in her footie pajamas, holding her guitar strapped to her body with a new black, glittery guitar strap. Like my mom staying in her bathrobe until noon.

Like my dad pouring over his new Oxford world atlas on the living room sofa for hours this afternoon, like a child with a new toy. Rarely do books capture attention like that anymore. I love it.

Like my mom cleaning up from our late-afternoon meal sporting an apron... and ipod headphones. The grand surprise this Christmas was my mom's gift of an ipod from Santa Claus. Of course, with Ashley's help the ipod is chock full of games and music, and my sweet overwhelmed mother is still learning how to turn the thing on.

December 25th is a special holiday. I know that Jesus was probably born in the spring, and that our beloved Christmas traditions have pagan roots. I realize that America has commercialized and cheapened the sacred elements of the holiday. But I also know that as my family enjoys the relatively routine and traditional elements of Christmas - a candlelit church service, dinner out, games by the fire, Christmas picture books, delicious food, a tromp around the block in the snow, time to relax and reflect - there is a liturgical beauty to it all. The routine is our way of celebrating Jesus's incarnation. Through our traditions we remember his coming. Perhaps the ham and twice-baked potatoes, the elaborate tree, the Frank Sinatra in the background are peripheral elements to what should be a more spiritual holiday. Yet, I celebrate Jesus in it all, just as I hold all those things good. Jesus has made this possible - family, the enjoyment of what he's given us, thanking him for the beauty of a winter day - and I am indebted forever.

Jesus came to give us abundant life, to be "the image of an unseen God", to live and love and die so that God was glorified. In this, we have hope.



Christmas Food for Thought

"No priest, no theologian stood at the manger of Bethlehem. And yet all Christian theology has its origin in the wonder of all wonders: that God became human. Holy theology arises from knees bent before the mystery of the divine child in the stable.

Without the holy night, there is no theology. "God is revealed in flesh," the God-human Jesus Christ—that is the holy mystery that theology came into being to protect and preserve. How we fail to understand when we think that the task of theology is to solve the mystery of God, to drag it down to the flat, ordinary wisdom of human experience and reason! Its sole office is to preserve the miracle as miracle, to comprehend, defend, and glorify God's mystery precisely as mystery. This and nothing else, therefore, is what the early church meant when, with never flagging zeal, it dealt with the mystery of the Trinity and the person of Jesus Christ … . If Christmas time cannot ignite within us again something like a love for holy theology, so that we—captured and compelled by the wonder of the manger of the Son of God—must reverently reflect on the mysteries of God, then it must be that the glow of the divine mysteries has also been extinguished in our heart and has died out."

- Dietrich Bonhoeffer

Saturday, December 18, 2010

This reality

The engine starts, the moment hangs,
and the suspension of two conjoined worlds trembles
like my hands holding the disposable coffee cup
that was not coffee, but cocoa -
a sugary countdown of finite sips until
the immediacy of
goodbye.

This reality is cut and pasted
from another time and place
of you and me, when
soft laughter and happy eyes
did not conceal saltwater,
and when one hour
held the promise of many more.

Catch the bubble before it bursts -
that is what I want to tell you,
but the chance is lost. The light is
fading now
as you fade down the highway.

I want to rewind to the second before
we tossed those empty cups
into the wastebasket,
marking this separation.

Winter is radiant.
I wonder where you are going,
and then,
wonder the same for me.

If God paints the sky with his brightest colors
swirls the fuchsia with the cobalts and mauves
and lets the light shimmer through
as if the sky was the sun's candleholder,
I imagine that the future's outlines -
cast in rough draft behind all this sorrow -
are no less beautiful.


Thursday, December 9, 2010

What have I managed to do today besides homework?

Work out at the Dow.
Shower. Always a good use of my time.
Don a cute outfit and braid my hair.
Throw some laundry in the washer, then throw it in the dryer. (This included my pillow. It needed to happen.)
Have lunch with a friend and exchange Christmas presents. Received a fuzzy blanket!!!
Visit another friend in her room. Dropped off some goodies for another friend.
Sit in the basement of the library, start my History of Christianity study guide, and get hopelessly distracted.

C'mon Brooke, get motivated. In one week you'll be driving through Chicago at this time, heading home to partake of Christmas cheer and eggnog and quiet, comfy slumber. Only 1 test, 1 paper, 2 juries, and 3 finals to go. Now is not the time for procrastination or distraction. Now is the time to dig in and be insanely productive.

Now that I've thoroughly chastised myself, I think I'll get back to work.



Thursday, December 2, 2010

Research, research, research

I am sitting at Martha Miller with my friend Michelle and eight chunky books (all friends as well, of course). We are progressing rapidly on that huge obligation we call homework. Michelle is listening to her ipod as she types. I sip my coffee. In the middle of the rotunda is a gigantic Christmas tree, glimmering dimly even in the daylight, covered in red bows. It is peaceful here.

The next task on my life agenda is to start my research paper for American literature. I've spent the morning researching; how I wish I could just keep researching forever and never start writing. I think the transition between interpreting another's work and outputting your own is one of the hardest. Even now I don't feel like I've internalized these eight friendly books enough to write 8-10 pages; however, necessity compels me to write (in the form of my beautiful family, coming to visit me tomorrow and staying all weekend, and four Vespers performances that will consume my weekend!)

My paper is about Calvinism and American Literature. I chose this topic because Professor Pannapacker mentioned in class that Nathaniel Hawthorne was a Calvinist. Funny, says I, I would like to hear Trygve's take on this. Because Hawthorne is the grumpiest Calvinist I've ever read, if he is one. Going to school at Hope, which is in the Reformed tradition, I guess maybe my views of Calvinism are more modern, more limited to what I've learned in class and experienced in chapel. It's funny to me that America chose "The Scarlet Letter" and then "Moby-Dick", two of the most depressing books out there, for the literary canon. Hawthorne was a wishy-washy Calvinist. Melville, inspired by Hawthorne's genius and desirous of imitating his seemingly easy balance between man's simultaneous innate depravity and inherent rights, wrote with Calvinistic themes - predestination, sin and damnation, orthodoxy, Biblical authority. But he was not a Calvinist. I think both books illustrate the heart of the struggle between liberal thought and orthodox Christianity in the context of their day, and really, in ours too. And really, who hasn't struggled with the idea that we are "saved by grace"; that nothing we do can earn our salvation - yet we are supposed to "work out (our) salvation with fear and trembling?"

Melville and Hawthorne emit the scent of reformed thought, but they are not optimistic enough to be truly reformed. They never find the joy of God's grace. There are hints of hope, however; Hester Prynne accepts her lot and repents of her sin, and she looks forward to a day when the world will be brighter. Ishmael is the lone survivor of the wreck of the Pequod, saved by the coffin his friend Queequeg made.

Ugh, so much to think about. On to writing!

Friday, November 26, 2010

Heather Sellers and her blog

We set up our Christmas tree tonight. As I type the tree towers some 8 feet high, covered in blotches of winking white light. It is most pleasant to do homework on the living room couch with Mr. Tree. What makes the experience more beautiful is that although the tree is fake, my intelligent mother hung a pine-scented thingy from the fake trees' branches, and voila. Fresh-outta-the-woods smell and a happy girl.

After the tree was up, my mom and I chatted, and somehow Heather Sellers came up. Heather Sellers is a professor at Hope. I will have her next semester for my Intro to Creative Writing class, for which I am beyond excited and also a bit apprehensive. I caught a glimpse of Heather (Professor Sellers?) at the opera last weekend. She was wearing a warm looking cape, a cute skirt, tights, and a hat, as well as a big smile - the most noticeable of all her features besides her rather large, long wavy black hair. I immediately fell in love with the woman. From what I hear, she is rather fascinating and a wonderful teacher of creative writing.

We googled Heather because I was trying to describe to my mom the condition Heather has, which is called "face blindness" a.k.a prosopagnosia (look it up, it's beyond interesting). After reading some of her blog posts in "Psychology Today" and learning a little about her life, I stumbled across her own personal blog. Oh, what joy! The personal blog of a real writer who's published a real book. Of course, there are millions of these out there; ignorant as I am, I have not taken the time to find them. Scratch that, I read Beth Moore's blog. But Heather Sellers is in a different category... she is literature, and she is Hope.

So after reading a handful of her blog entries about cycling, writing, and her ecstasy upon reading The New York Times review of her book, my inspiration hit the ceiling and my ambition grew. She has such an easy, familiar way of writing. Her words are carefully chosen, but they don't seem forced. What a talent!

I am looking forward to learning from this little celebrity a bit more about the art of writing.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Thanksgiving

Nudged inside by a whoosh of chill air, the scent of baking bread, gravy, and magnificent turkey hit me as we stepped into Stella and Brian's house. Hello, Thanksgiving. After the smell, what greeted me was a pair of big eyes magnified by a pair of round glasses and a crinkly smile, peering over the back of the couch. Hello, Jordan. The third thing I noticed was a blur of boy as he scampered past and a little giggle. Hello, Alexander.
Toys emerged from the bedroom in hordes to be shown off, scrapbooks of vacations were passed around, and brie cheese and homemade bread preceded the feast.
Then we ate, seated at a table fit for royalty and covered in enough food to host a NFL team.
Then we digested and laughed. Washed the dishes.
And of course, dessert still remaining, we ate again.
In the warm delight of a dark November night, leaning in over half full cups of coffee with our travel-savy friends to examine a world map and dream about other cultures, the magic of the holiday floated in the air like steam from hot out of the oven stuffing.




Thursday, November 11, 2010

Hasta los vientos y las olas le obedecen

Since it's warm in Holland, since the sun is shining, since I'm longing for a break from homework and responsibilities... I'm thinking about tropical vacations. And God's faithfulness.

A sight that never fails to move me is the vastness of the ocean. Serene, lovely, stretching for miles and miles. Everything on its surface is exposed, vulnerable. A single sailboat. A dolphin's tail. From the shore, I love to watch the boats go by.

Yet as a passenger, I think the ocean would be slightly more ferocious. The high seas are not a tame place. Fear and terror often sneak abroad ocean voyages, as unwelcome as seasickness or navigational difficulties. I'd rather watch from the shore than be a skipper, or a captain, or any old sailor.

Okay, so maybe it's a little cliche, but I'll go with it anyway. Even as the ocean is super powerful, super scary, at the same time marvelous to behold and terrifying, God controls that ocean. Think about it. We worship the God who calmed the wind and the waves.

Why do storms stir me up into a frenzy? Why do I freak out when we leave shore and the skies grow dark? Jesus doesn't remain asleep for long; he's been in the boat the whole time, and just when the circumstances are about to overwhelm, he rises. With his voice he calms the torrential rain and the rocky waves.

Jesus calms my heart and rows me back to shore in one piece. Everytime.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Crash

I think I was ten.
Running through the sprinkler
in joyous ecstasy we
charged towards each other and
crashed;
it was
summer, and
the continuous stream of freezing
hose water must have
blinded us.
The next minute we were
on the grass, gasping
for air,
the oxygen squeezed
from our lungs,
tears mixing with the
hose water.

You and I
were breathless
but only for a moment.

I am nineteen; it is
fall.
I was running away from you.
We never crashed,
but somehow
a blow knocked me down, regardless.
I'm still waiting
for my lungs to inflate again.


Friday, November 5, 2010

History

A student of history cannot see the present unchanged once fresh winds have swept through the landscape of the past. The influence of voices of bygone days can alter a perspective irrevocably. In an age of reading lit macbook screens and scrolling through internet pages on a personalized, silicon-protected iphone to research a quick question, it is amazing that the historical voices even have a chance. Perhaps our voices must be attuned to them, or our libraries simply need to prop their words up on plastic stands for easy check-out. Maybe if amazon features their works on a top one hundred list, citizens caught up in the craze of our facebook-addicted, consumerist, increasingly more superficial culture can expand their horizons. If only they realized how expansive those horizons could become.

This idea of being alert to the messages of the past is especially vital in faith. History enriches faith in ways immeasurable. Pick up Augustine's Confessions. Understand how heartfelt true faith can be, how poignant, what struggle authentic conversion is for some. Scan The Rule of St. Benedict for ways to bring discipline to the Christian life, a life that accurately reflects the convictions of the religion. Learn about Macrina, John Chrysostom, and other iconographic figures with radical stories. Sit in silence with Celtic Christian poetry and wonder what kinds of natural beauty inspired the words.

Breathe in their stories. Ponder the insights. Cherish their wisdom and discern how these words speak into this time and place, how you might be different because of them.

This has lingered with me all week. Gregory of Nazianzus said: "A man must himself be cleansed before cleansing others; himself become wise, that he may make others wise; become light, and then give light; draw near to God, and so bring others near." Before I desire to shine the light of the gospel to others, first, I must be educated on what this gospel means to me. To Augustine. To Martin Luther. To the church fathers, mothers, monks, abbots, theologians, founders. To us all.

When the sun casts its warm rays through stained glass into a dimly lit chapel, onto your upraised face, and you feel it through closed eyelids and suddenly open eager eyes to a brilliant pane of radiant art...

that is what history does for our faith.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Oh, what a.... wonderful... day!

Right now I am inclined to take one glance at the events of today, crumple up my evaluations of anything good about it, and flick them into the wastebasket, like paper toss. Why? Because the glaringly obvious evidence for a bad day is much clearer than the subtler rays of light vying for attention. I would much rather list the numerous reasons why I want to let big fat tears drench a Kleenex. Why lounging in front of a TV with a carton of cookies and cream ice cream sounds so simply heavenly.

You know what I'm talking about. You nod because you had one of those days last week. Did you give in to the strong urge to throw a temper tantrum? I'm on the verge. I haven't had a day like this in a while.

I remember my affliction and my wandering,

the bitterness and the gall.

I well remember them,

and my soul is downcast within me.
YET....
Yet,

Yet this I call to mind

and therefore I have hope:

Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed,

for his compassions never fail.

They are new every morning;

great is your faithfulness.

I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion;

therefore I will wait for him.”

The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,

to the one who seeks him;

it is good to wait quietly

for the salvation of the LORD.

It is good for a man to bear the yoke

while he is young.

(Lamentations 3:19-27)


Look at the bright side, Brooke! What was good about today?

- Black bean burgers for lunch!

- Study time with the lovely Julie at the best coffee shop in town (JP's)

- High compliments on a religion paper

- The prospect of a super cool new job
I will not give in! I will wake up tomorrow morning (hopefully not ten minutes before I have to be somewhere... yes, that happened today...) and commence life anew. Tomorrow morning I'll welcome the day with my Bible and the hope that God is doing something through the silly circumstances that make my sensitive, tired heart overwhelmed and ready to quit.


BECAUSE OF THE LORD'S GREAT LOVE WE ARE NOT CONSUMED.

Hallelujah :-)





Monday, November 1, 2010

Remembering Grandaddy, one year later

The Lord told him what was good,
Pecan tassies, turtle candies,
fresh mountain air.
One thick book beside a
comfy armchair
And this is what he required of him:
Engineer, church elder
respected father to three.
Grandfather to six more, a life
of faith and study.
To do what is right,
Following God's ways
with focus and discipline,
dedicated to truth; a proud
patriarch and citizen.
To love mercy,
He offered wise counsel
with no lack of prayer,
got frustrated by inane politicians, and
stood up for what was fair.
And to walk humbly with his God.
A smile lit up his eyes,
his wit so funny and dry;
God received the glory
from birth to last goodbye.
And he walked humbly
on earth
just as he walks joyously
in heaven
with his God.

Missing Grandaddy today but rejoicing in a life lived for Christ, dedicated to Christ, and fulfilled in Christ.

Monday, October 25, 2010

American Literature!

I am going to selfishly use this blog for a moment as a means of reviewing for my American Literature test tonight. Yes, I know you may not be interested in learning about transcendental writers, so I understand if you skip this post and come back another time. Knowing that this goes on the internet functions as a sort of "pre-test" for me so I can practice my skills; preparing for essay exams is much more ambiguous than for other exams!

Here goes nothing...
Everything I Know About Romanticism, Transcendentalism, Emerson, Thoreau, and Whitman (in a more creative format than what I have to do tonight on my test because otherwise I will fall asleep right now)
By Brooke McDonald

Imagine we're at a dinner party in the mid to late 1800s in Concord, Massachusetts. Fancy napkins, champagne glasses, appetizers by the plateful. And three distinguished guests. Who are they? Let me introduce you.

Ralph Waldo Emerson is the one sitting by himself in the corner, smiling at the crowd and wearing a slightly bemused expression. He doesn't really like parties; solitude is more up his alley. (He's all about simplicity, too, so the fact that this house is all decked out for the party and everyone is wearing their Sunday best rubs him the wrong way.) Ask him about his opinions, and he'll clearly tell you everything you want to know. One word: transcendentalism. It's his creation, his baby. Emerson used to be a Unitarian minister. Not anymore. His church is the sanctuary of the wheat field, the altar of smooth rocks at the base of a waterfall, the cathedral lit up by the setting sun and the light of the moon. Harvard Divinity School had him speak to their students a while back and what he said made them so angry that they refused to ever let him come back. Historical Christianity? Out the window. If you want to feel good about yourself, need a little pick-me-up, talk to Emerson. He'll tell you you're a god, you can be completely self-reliant, your soul is the most important thing about you and not your intellect. Everything is understandable when viewed through the lens of nature.

Emerson's a nice guy, but he doesn't get out much. You might find him slightly antisocial and even more contemplative and reflective. He's considered pretty radical, even in this Romantic era with the rejection of reason and the embrace of emotions, spirituality, and spontaneity. America is starting to embrace nationalism and individualism, and Emerson's stepping up to the plate with a lot to say about all that.

Next big guest at this party: Henry David Thoreau. Do you have any pencils that you love because they write so smoothly? Probably a Thoreau pencil. Yep, he's from that family - in fact, he's made some pretty advanced developments in the pencil that you've benefited from. A Harvard education will make that sort of grand accomplishment possible! Yet Thoreau's done more than just go to Harvard and make pencils. He's a disciple of Emerson. Yep, he worships the guy. He loves his philosophy so much that he tries to put it into practice as much as possible. Do you see how Thoreau is sitting with a group of abolitionists and politicians, laughing and talking, but he's dressed simply, and he's one of the few who didn't complement the hostess on her elaborate decorations and place settings? Thoreau is just like Emerson: practical, simple, and focused on the soul and nature. He's incredibly frugal, too, and keeps detailed records of every penny that leaves his wallet. You might have read in the newspaper how Thoreau moved to Walden Pond a few years ago in order to build a little house, grow his own food, and retreat from society for two years. Yes, the legend is true! Ask Thoreau about the environment; he's known as one of the first American environmental writers. Nature astounds him and captures his closest attention. He's not as much of a hermit as Emerson, but Myers-Briggs would definitely label him as an introvert. Although watch out because the guy believes in his convictions; he's spent a night in jail for not paying his taxes and has spoken out adamantly against slavery.

Thoreau's an interesting fellow. I personally didn't finish his book Walden because I found it hard to get into and different than anything else I've read. Not strictly an autobiography, nor a devotional, nor a how-to-manual or poetry or an essay, but it's a bit of all of those genres. You can skim through it sometime perhaps, and visit the house where he lived at Walden. I've heard it's a beautiful place.

Whitman's the eccentric guy in the top hat surrounded by women, men, and children. The guy has charisma! His picture's in the paper every other day because the man loves to play dress-up... first he's all rugged, Daniel Boone-like and then he's donning a frilly shirt and wearing a corset. You'll find Whitman down by the river, walking the streets of New York City, and at the opera. Much of his inspiration for his writings comes from politics, the opera, the Bible, and Emerson and Thoreau. Have you read his book Leaves of Grass? It's a collection of transcendental poetry glorifying the self, nature, and common people. Whitman differs from his mentors Emerson and Thoreau in that he shifts his focus from isolated people searching within themselves for the truth to a collective group of people commonly sharing life and a soul. Equality, love, rights, and similarities between everybody are his main messages. One might call him a precursor of the beat poets.

The main problem with Whitman is his subject matter and his style. Whitman will write about anything, and I mean anything. That's why Emerson and Thoreau don't entirely endorse all of his writings. Also, he is the champion of what's called "free verse"; he employs long sentences, anaphora, repetition, antithesis, and more to create a conversion experience for the reader. By the end you're swept away in a spinning dervish of lights, sounds, situations, and feelings. What Whitman does best is plunk you down in someone else's shoes and let you realize you're just like them, even if they're completely different from you in race, job, or social status.

Personally, I hope I'm sitting by Whitman at dinner. He's a little cuckoo, but at the same time no one else writes descriptions of nature, American life, and the common person's experiences like he does. He has a way with words, that's for sure (sometimes he even makes them up...)

You had no idea the three main voices of transcendentalism were coming to this party, did you? Well, here they are. Now you can go introduce yourself. Just avoid Herman Melville... he's in the other room with a scowl on his face signing autographs in a super thick book called Moby-Dick. Melville's not sold on transcendentalism. Obviously, because the main symbol in his book - the great white whale - stands for evil, the one element transcendentalism doesn't explain. Maybe we can rile them up and get them debating tonight, because I'd like to hear what Emerson, Thoreau, and Whitman would say in response to Melville's questions. He certainly makes veiled references to these guys in that huge book he's signing right now.

Okay, now you know enough to enjoy yourself. Go sit by Emerson. Maybe he'll come out of his solitude and chat with you for a little bit, and who knows, perhaps you'll leave tonight a converted transcendentalist....


God's ways are higher

Sorrow is better than laughter, for sadness has a refining influence on us. Ecclesiastes 7:3

Enjoy prosperity while you can, but when hard times strike, realize that both come from God. Remember that nothing is certain in this life. Ecclesiastes 7:14

"My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts", says the Lord. "And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts are higher than your thoughts." Isaiah 55: 8-9

Isn't it comforting that God's vision extends from our past to our future and encompasses every tiny aspect in between? That he understands the reasons for every circumstance in our life, every moment in which we question and doubt?

Thanking God today for this truth.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Collapse into his arms

I will bless the Lord who guides me;
even at night my heart instructs me.
I know the Lord is always with me.
I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.
Psalm 16: 7-8

A reminder for you... and for me... today, that the presence of God is tangible, comforting, and incredibly close at every moment. All it takes is an extended hand. He will grab it and never let go because he LOVES to be strong for us when we are weak, wimpy, and bewildered. In our sorriest, saddest, most pathetic states, his love and grace insulate us entirely. Collapse into his arms... no others' compare.


Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Dozing through the day

Do you know the feeling of absolute grogginess? The kind that gets up with you in the morning, follows you around all day, and (like a best friend, or maybe just a clingy acquaintance) refuses to leave your side? Grogginess was with me when I greeted the day grumpily at 7 am. When I tried to fend it off with coffee, it only pressed in closer, a great big smothering hug. Thanks. American Literature went until 8:50 tonight - always a monster, that class - and I honestly yawned twelve hundred times. And constantly popped my new retainer in and out of my mouth because I couldn't focus on anything else (it's extraordinary that a retainer can become so fascinating when you're tired).
Grogginess is terribly difficult to shake. But somehow I fought through a stats presentation, six and a half hours of classes, practice with a voice student, a meeting with a professor, and planning for small group with it enveloping my head in laughing gas. And I actually might have absorbed a little bit of something in American Literature. Was it extreme fatigue or actual comedy that caused me to laugh when my professor said, "Walt Whitman wasn't writing any prissy poems. He was writing about grass!" Perhaps my chuckles were a little much...
These days when an alert, conscious mind seems impossible to summon are never fun. People ask you questions and make comments, and you either give some inane response or grin like an idiot. Or make an excuse. "I'm just tired, sorry." Well, hello, everybody's tired... this is college! You can't be talking. Sympathy is hard to come by unless you're deathly ill or have like 24 credits and five majors. We've all got it hard.
Solution? Everybody should go to bed at 10:30 and sleep until they feel like waking up. What a wonderful world it would be. Except you'd miss sunrises. And early morning mist. And the soft morning light that brushes your cheek so sweetly, turning the corners of your mouth into a smile. And breakfast, and coffee, and cheery "good mornings" as you walk to your destination. Mornings contain newness, freshness, a dose of hope and excitement found nowhere else.
All this musing makes me want to go to bed and wait for morning. Goodnight, and sweet dreams!

Saturday, October 9, 2010

What is our role in God's hungry world?

Fasting and justice. Two words that scare the heebie-jeebies out of me. Justice. Fasting. I like my comfortable, happy, busy, American life with my eat-as-much-as-you-want meal plan at Phelps, my bountiful selection of dorm room snacks, and my credit card that paves the way to drinks at the coffee shop and pumpkin walnut muffins.

Food is good. God gave us food. It's his gift, his way of providing for our needs as humans. The world is full of delicious things to eat, and we have the privilege of partaking in them.

That said, the world is also fallen. God gives us food, but some people don't have enough. It's a crazy concept for me because at home our pantry is always stocked full, food is right at my fingertips, and if I'm out and about with a hunger pain I can drive through McDonald's in like two seconds. Hunger isn't something that's familiar or imminent in my life.

I've been reflecting on these themes this morning, and God's speaking to me, as always, through his scripture and through my convictions. I honestly have an aversion to the word "justice", "social justice", etc. Because I've grown up thinking that preaching the gospel and sharing the love of Jesus is the main concern of a Christian's life, I consider "justice" often to be sidetracking. God has taught me a lot about this in the past couple of years, and I now realize that we can participate with God in freeing the captives, feeding the hungry, giving to the poor, and denying yourself so others can live. The Bible is full of references to the poor, the hungry, and the marginalized.... I didn't want to see it before, but I have now. WIDOWS. ORPHANS. Micah 6:8, Isaiah 58, there are verses all over Proverbs, Matthew 25. We are called to be generous givers, suppliers, and lovers of those that don't have enough.

At the same time, I think, "But God, so many people did this to themselves! It's their fault!" On Thursday we had a food stamps simulation in Phelps Hall, and while my heart went out to people on food stamps, I couldn't help but let those negative thoughts sneak in my head... "well for good grief, take some college classes and then you won't be making minimum wage. Then you can feed your children. It's your responsibility as a parent to feed your children!"

I think there's some truth to that. Parents have responsibilities. People have responsibilities. But there's also truth to "The generous will prosper; those who refresh others will themselves be refreshed" (Prov. 11:25). And, "Those who shut their ears to the cries of the poor will be ignored in their own time of need" (Prov. 21:13).

God is fully able to provide for his children. That being said, he calls us to participate too. Where is the line? How much do we do? Can we ever do enough? Can we truly end world hunger, or even be expected to?

"This is the kind of fasting I want;
Free those who are wrongly imprisioned;
lighten the burden of those who work for you.
Let the oppressed go free,
and remove the chains that bind people.
Share your food with the hungry,
and give shelter to the homeless.
Give clothes to those who need them,
and do not hide from relatives who need your help.
Then... YOUR SALVATION WILL COME LIKE THE DAWN,
and your wounds will quickly heal.
Your godliness will lead you forward,
and the glory of the Lord will protect you from behind.
Then when you call, the Lord will answer.
"Yes, I am here," he will quickly reply.

Isaiah 58: 6-9a

Monday, October 4, 2010

We're off to a great start.

Monday's a ideal day to learn important lessons. It's only 10:00 and I've already learned a few. Check it out.

1) Not eating breakfast before a statistics class of 1 hour and 20 minutes is a bad idea. This is pretty intuitive, but all the same breakfast CANNOT be skipped. Your brain will be mush during class. My brain was mush until I had my doughnut for the day... ;-)
2) Taking care of your phone is pretty vital if you want to be able to communicate with the outside world. I'm pretty sure my phone and I are going through a rough time of our relationship right now. I've dropped him AT LEAST 5 times in the last 5 days... and today he almost gave up on me. Thankfully there's a little bit of love in there somewhere, 'cause we worked things out.
3) No contacts for tired eyes. It just doesn't roll that way. Glasses=happy eyes if you are tired.
4) Coffee makes the world happier and brighter. Oh, and so does morning Bible reading :)

Hope your Monday is also an opportune time to learn lessons. Just don't learn them the hard way like I did :-)

Saturday, October 2, 2010

A morning with Ralph Waldo Emerson

The famed transcendentalist accompanied me to the library this morning, and we sat in my favorite spot. Overstuffed armchairs are the best place for heavy thinking, and I suspected that Ralph had a lot of controversial things to say. It took two hours for him to explain to me, through his essays "Self-Reliance", "The Poet", and "Address to Harvard Divinity School", his view of life. I'm disappointed, actually. Rather troubled by what he had to say.

Last week Ben Franklin enlightened me to the possibilities of man's intellect in business, invention, and discerning human nature. He wrote some good stuff in "Poor Richard's Almanac" but at the same time I despaired at his removal of God from society and from life's meaning. (I was, however, impressed by the man's productivity. The guy spent most of the day studying, inventing, or discoursing, and wouldn't even stop to play cards for fear of wasting his time.) What was so discouraging to notice in his writing was the emphasis on success and wealth. That's all he worked towards. It's easy to see America's roots of materialism and self-fulfillment in his example. And okay, granted, Ben Franklin was one of those linchpin people who set a moral and intellectual example, and we probably owe him something. What we don't owe him is a thankfulness for the protection of our spiritual heritage, which is something that seems to disappear in the mid 1700s in America.

Emerson writes lyrically and expresses ideas with poignant images and breathtaking ideals. However, his individualistic viewpoint of life that rejects historical Christianity, values nonconformity, rejects submission to anyone, much less God, believes the soul and nature are the most important things in life, and simply points our worship towards nature and our own amazingness and productivity is saddening. What does he say about Jesus? That Jesus was a good man with beautiful ideals and poetic language, but that you, too, can have that same nature. Praise yourself. There is God inside of you. After all, Jesus' example shows us that God wants to incarnate himself inside every man. While it's true that we are created in the image of God, we're called to only reflect his glory and direct our worship back to our maker, not to our own divine selves. Emerson, dude! You were way off track.

I will at least thank Emerson for his time and for illuminating the origins of our American culture. His writings did help me understand how we've ended up where we are today as a culture: obsessed with self-gain and advancing up the social ladder, holding relative religious beliefs, withholding our tithes and offerings, and doing whatever makes us feel happy or individualistic. Be yourself, the culture says. Do what you want to do.

If I was a philosopher, I might write something to blast those ideas out of the park with God's truth. I wish I could! I somehow didn't have words for Emerson this morning. Thus I blogged, and there lies the end of my disturbing morning adventure with Emerson.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

The creed, it is faded, musty, ancient, and it blinds me with light all the same

The Nicene Creed

I believe in one God, the Father Almighty, Maker of heaven and earth, and of all things visible and invisible.

And in one Lord Jesus Christ, the only-begotten Son of God, begotten of the Father before all worlds; God of God, Light of Light, very God of very God; begotten, not made, being of one substance with the Father, by whom all things were made.

Who, for us men and for our salvation, came down from heaven, and was incarnate by the Holy Spirit of the virgin Mary, and was made man; and was crucified also for us under Pontius Pilate; He suffered and was buried; and the third day He rose again, according to the Scriptures; and ascended into heaven, and sits on the right hand of the Father; and He shall come again, with glory, to judge the quick and the dead; whose kingdom shall have no end.

And I believe in the Holy Ghost, the Lord and Giver of Life; who proceeds from the Father and the Son; who with the Father and the Son together is worshipped and glorified; who spoke by the prophets.

And I believe in one holy catholic and apostolic Church. I acknowledge one baptism for the remission of sins; and I look for the resurrection of the dead, and the life of the world to come. Amen.


Who was nonchalant about creeds before today? My church doesn't employ them in worship, nor did they put me through catechism or offer prizes for memorization of the creed's fixed stone phrases. Creeds are something for old fogies, for people who can't think for themselves what they believe and need to reference what dead bishops believed in order to have an opinion.

I've had a metamorphosis of the mind. This creed, this is something mind-boggling. Three hundred bishops formulated the basis for this statement of Jesus's Lordship, the power of God, and indescribable hope on the way at the Council of Nicea in A.D. 325. It's September 30, 2010, and I scan the creed for homework. Intro to the History of Christianity. Rewind through the ages, speedily swim through years and years of history, confusion, hurt, pain, literature, art, inventions, wars, denim jeans and saris and togas, popcorn and potatoes and grapes, and boom, here it is. Truth emitting the brightest light. Jesus... here he is in the Nicene Creed, coming to earth, God in man, to show us what God would look like if he suddenly appeared on the shores of our lakes, stopped in at our weddings, dined at our dinners.

Athanasius said, "For he was made man that we might be made God; and he manifested himself by a body that we might receive the idea of the unseen Father."

I'm getting chills, goosebumps. Jews believed that to see God's face meant death. Jesus came to earth with a face. The idea of an unseen father.

Wow.

Monday, September 20, 2010

If I loved debate, I would've become a lawyer. That's why I'm an English major.

"Debater" is not an apt word for my personality. Try words like "dreamer", "contemplator", or "supporter." There are ideas swimming in the deep sea that is my cognitive mind, yet effort often struggles to fish them out. Even upon a successful catch, the creatures themselves may be thrown back at a moment's notice if you show me something you caught that was better. I cheer for the victories of your thoughts, when your trip to the serene pool of contemplation results in a revelation of beauty. You'll find me sitting by that pool long after you're gone, with my toes in the water, letting your discoveries melt into my reflections on the sometimes rippling, unsettled surface.
My debater friends, rowing across that unstable sea, point with sure fingers, to the sky, the water, and everything in it that they know. I appreciate, admire their certainty.
It pleases me to linger, even if their explanations should have sufficed, even if the fish aren't biting my bait. Maybe for me, you convince me, often enough. Maybe for me, it's better to contemplate than to rise, decide, and be off. Wet toes and sand, sunsets and soft breezes. It's the experience, rather than the outcome, that gives me delight, watching the waves and wondering.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Trying to study in a dorm full of girls

alleyway rain, drizzling,
and whitecapped waves
on a Saturday evening.

Not loud enough.

the sound I hear,
It's laughter,
emitting from the
diaphragms
of a legion of college girls
over something absolutely hilarious,
over who knows what.

Maybe they'll clue me in,
as I am stuck
with Bradford and Melville
(No, those two are not sophomore guys...)
and waves and waves of water.

even pilgrims and whales
can't quite deafen
the noise around me.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Men Chants and Norweigan Recycling

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3JKKl95Ttrc

This is a masterful combination of six different songs into one. I don't know where the idea originated - or if Norwegian Recycling is the name of the band or the concept - but you listen to it and can't help but go, "Dude, that totally works, and that's totally awesome." (If you happen to talk like a teenage guy, which I don't... so maybe you leave out the dude... I guess I'm on a roll with 'dude' because my roommate frequently answers the phone with 'dude'...)

Dude, this song rocks!

Creativity is inspiring. Live life with a palette of watercolors in hand and go do something creative. Just listening to this makes me want to do something artsy... make a collage, spray paint an old piece of furniture, write a song, write a blog...

Funniest moment of the day: watching several hundred members of the opposite gender congregate outside Gilmore in the Keppel House parking lot for their annual Campus Ministries Dodgeball/Four Square tournament (I think that's what they were doing??). Frankly I didn't linger long enough to visually observe what went on, but I didn't need to. I could hear it all. Why are boys so loud? And why do they have to chant, "Men, men, men, MEN!" all together fifty bazillion times? And why do they have to scream and holler every two seconds? Mysterious questions.

Perhaps the screaming/bared chests/masculine chants are the ways that guys manifest their own creativity. In that case, I need to be more appreciative of their efforts and less critical of their noise....

Best moment of the day: finding out I have a co-leader for Bible study this fall! Praise God for answering my prayers. Hmm, and running to Windmill Island with Anne in the dusky, cool hours of night. And talking to Amy. Friends are marvelous.

"If you don't know what you're doing, pray to the Father. He loves to help. You'll get his help, and won't be condescended to when you ask for it. Ask boldly, believingly, without a second thought." James 1:5-6, The Message

Good night :-)

Monday, September 6, 2010

Just another manic Monday...

Six hours in class, five hours doing homework, an hour and a half at meals, half an hour in chapel. 6 plus 5 plus 1.5 plus .5 = 13 hours. I've been up for 16 hours... apparently I filled three hours of this very full day with... stuff?? Chatting? Email-checking? Walking? Hmm, in my calculations I'm not sure what I was doing, but the day felt chock full, so I must've been doing something of substance...

It's amazing how fast time speeds along before you even notice it's gone.

Labor day unfortunately isn't a day off at Hope College, so I celebrated by laboring. Statistics case study and homework problems and history of Christianity reading were today's main labors. Tomorrow: Spanish homework and studying, Statistics quiz studying, and American Lit!

Earlier I had observant, deep, profound comments for this blog, but at the moment they seem to have been washed overboard throughout this rainy, busy Monday evening. I'll fish 'em out of my subconscious at some point perhaps. I think I wanted to link lots of little interesting things I learned in my classes in some awesome way and in doing so, compound them deeper into my highly-forgetful brain. Ehh, another day... right now my goal is bed and sleep and cuddling with Teddy.

Here's a shred of insight, if I fit nothing else into the blog today. God is faithful. (You had no idea, did you? Guess what; he is!) There is purpose and a point to every happening, every circumstance, every hurt, every moment. How sweet it is to hear friends say, "God worked it all out! I had no idea how he did it, but he did!" (I got to hear that today.) How exciting it is to be able to say that in my own life, when I take a moment to simply recognize that God does this again and again and again if I'd only peek out of my heavy-lidded eyes. How comforting to know that even in the confusion, even in the drudgery, even in misunderstanding and waiting, God is faithful.



Thursday, September 2, 2010

Moby-Dick, or, The Whale

The grand, epic work is written by Herman Melville, and it is 572 pages long. A whale of a book. Surely jokes have been cracked again and again relating its subject matter to its size, growing old and stale, but for now I enjoy the connection.
American Literature, the class for which I had to purchase Moby-Dick, begins Monday at 6 p.m., but Moby-Dick himself swam into my life a week early with an email from Professor Pannapacker: "I don't have an assignment for you, yet; just bring yourself and be prepared to begin the exploration of two centuries of American literary history. (Well, if you're really ambitious, you can start reading Moby-Dick.)"
If you're really ambitious... thus began the challenge, and since homework is sparse this week, the whale settled himself into my backpack and, feeling lonely, has been pressing me to take him out from time to time.
I took him to the Dow to work out this morning and then managed to avoid him for the rest of the day. Studied at Martha Miller, ate dinner with friends and savored a cupcake in my dorm room. But as I ate the last bite, the whale appeared on my desk, fat as ever, upset with me.
So we're sitting on the futon, the whale and I, and Melville is alternately putting me to sleep and surprising me with his insightful, proverbial, and often quirkily humorous writing. Sections drag, bogged down with detail and derailment from the plot, and yet I hang on for the ride. When the waves crash and the sailors put out to sea, when fragrant chowder satisfies the hungriest belly, when the eery mood is interrupted with something funny, I chuckle and cozy up against the futon. It makes the whale happy, I think.
Melville's something, man. He's really something.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Live from Hope College

Yes, ladies and gentleman, we are live from Hope College, specifically, Gilmore Hall room 202, for the start of a new school year! Much remained unchanged when I returned to Hope on Saturday night, but several aspects were different.
1) Gilmore Hall has new, shiny, reflective windows! This means less peeping toms and more privacy. Something all girls love.
2) Phelps has yet again changed our mealtime routine by confusing our silverware habits and placing silverware INSIDE the area where food is served. Not on the tables. I've already gone 100% of meals without grabbing silverware before I sat down. The correct habit will eventually form, I'm hoping. Until then I'll work off the calories as I eat them with my continual hopping up and down.
3) It's hotter than usual. Already mentioned. I'll stop complaining.

Changes are minimal. Which is a good thing, because Hope College is, as Mary Poppins once said, "Practically perfect in every way." Pink petunias planted thickly along the sidewalk, tall pine trees shading you as you journey to class, restaurants and shops across 9th street that scream "adorable", nighttime worship services under the stars. This is a great school.

Tomorrow is the first day of classes; interestingly enough, my Tuesday is free of classes save College Chorus at 7:30. While everyone else has their first day jitters, I will still be in summer mode for another 24 hours :-)

I am happy to be here, even if it's hot as heck, because awaiting the thrills of a brand new school year are like awaiting Christmas morning. Friends, laughter, encountering God, beautiful charming Holland, caring professors, challenging assignments, good books, thought-provoking discussions. It's all waiting under the tree.

Let the school year begin!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Packing

I'm packing for college. I have no time to blog.

I am blogging, which means I'm not actually packing!

I want to pack but I want to blog too!

Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

That's enough. Packing now.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Perfect Day

If today was a flavor
It was all my favorites, the sweet ones
And it was a coconut, dark chocolate, cheesecake day.
If today was a smell
Think about whiffs you take that make a smile spread
And it was a clean sheets, candles burning, christmas tree day.
If today was a color
Envision the way sunlight makes leaves shimmer
And it was a vivid greenbluepinkyellowpurplesilverredblackbrowncream day.

As I left home, the sun winked 'cause she said it would be perfect,
And as I returned, the moon and I agreed it was.

Not only for the perfect weather
A perfectly content drive from the cities to Fargo with coffee for company
Perfect pepperoni sausage pizza or the perfect length jeans from West Acres Mall

It was perfect because I had
The perfect boy to spend it with.




Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Construction work

“You can enter God’s Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose that way. But the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it." Matthew 7:13-14

Our street is in the process of being transformed. For weeks driving home has been a pain. Trucks, men in bright yellow vests, and neon orange blockades everywhere. Running on my street this morning caked my athletic shoes in gravel and loose dirt. It's a mess.

I took a different route this morning on my run, however, and an unexpected turn found me on a finished street. Construction was finished here, and the road was perfect. I was surprised with the little bubble of joy that hit me to be running on smooth, clean blacktop.

"The gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult..." Maybe when Jesus said those words, Israel was undergoing construction, too. Maybe new roads were being built and smoothed. People walked everywhere in those days, and so a bumpy, rocky road was no doubt annoying. I can imagine most roads were annoying...

My street is narrow right now because of the construction work, but soon it will be finished. Flawless. Isn't that what God is going to do for our paths in life? They may be rocky now; the dust and detours may overwhelm, discourage. Sometimes we might wish we were taking the easier route.

But trust God with your narrow way. The rocky road leads to the best destination... and God will get you through the mess. Construction is only for a season.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Waitressing and waiting for packages

This is what happens when you waitress at night: you serve people delicious looking food for five hours straight without eating a crumb yourself, then go home and consume half the house in your hunger. But none of it is as good as what you were serving customers! And then you're full and full of energy and you can't go to sleep for, like, forever.

So you stay up late and... blog? :)

I like my job, truthfully. Waitressing pays great and allows you the opportunity to interact with your community as they come in one by one to order pizza. It lets you meet interesting people. The perks: an occasional free pizza and good tips. The downfalls: sweat and pizza don't make a good perfume. And sleep is never close after a shift.

Thank goodness I go to college and am working towards a degree so I don't have to waitress forever! God was good to provide this job for the time being, but he is likewise good to allow me to attend Hope so I can have better jobs in the future.

I'm getting sleepy from all this blogging.... but on another note, I must say.... getting packages from Amazon is perhaps one of the most exciting things ever. When they are textbooks, the excitement is even greater! I'm not being sarcastic... my textbooks are things of beauty. I ordered approximately 13 works of art from Amazon, and waiting for them all to come is like waiting for Santa to come on Christmas Eve. Several came today: The Life of Frederick Douglass, Emerson's Prose and Poetry, and Short Stories by Edgar Allen Poe. I just want to dig in now, but then there'd be nothing to do this year at school now, would there? :)

Goodnight!




Friday, August 6, 2010

Creative Memories

It's August 6th.

I want to drop everything and scrapbook.

All I need is a bound book, scissors and tape
Patterned paper and a sharpie
To turn back the clock
And capture memories and moments.
And photographs.

I'll wrestle my nostalgia to the page
Adhere it, trap it, tape it down
So there it will be, forever.
Homecoming queen, graduation
Birthday parties, unique dates
And that day we did lunch in the fall.
I remember these times smiling
Plucking each one from the safety of my heart.

Your face will fill my pages.
Your exuberant love will be my design.
I'll capture that glint in your eye
Temporary perfect happiness
As the camera flashed
And the moment lingered.

Summer's brightest days
And most beautiful patrons, basking
In the glow of freedom and free time.
When we picked berries, cheered at the game,
Got stomachaches from those huge pieces of cheesecake
Sat by the lake and talked for hours
Stuck our feet in the hot tub
And sang so loud in the car.
You'll have a sticker by your picture
And a caption by that captivating smile.

I won't let you go so quickly.

Every picture that I glue
Will buy me another minute with you.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Maxine

It's a summer day like many others, sunny and breezy and filled with the sound of construction trucks, the smell of blacktop being laid. I woke up to the noise of two humongous trucks practically driving in my room. The coffee was fresh, and the sleepies were plentiful in my head as I struggled to douse them with caffeine. Morning regularities progressed, trucks worked, and then I put on my black silk dress for the funeral. A funeral celebration for an absolutely spitfire, feisty, faithful, and adorable woman named Maxine. It's another day tick tocking away on the calendar. But it's also a frozen moment, a period of minutes and hours in which heaven and earth collide. It's a morning when people stare at the bright funeral arrangements full of pink daisies and red roses and wonder how exactly the woman that last Sunday perched her fragile, thin self on the second row on the right side of Maple Ridge Church could at this very second be lying whole, healed, and utterly flabbergasted at the feet of JESUS CHRIST.

Amazing, isn't it?

Maxine passed away last Friday after a fall in her kitchen that left her unable to recover. While her family is grieving heavily right now, they have peace and happiness knowing that Maxine is healthy. She suffered abundant physical pain in the last few years. Can you imagine how wondrous heaven's pain-free policy must seem to her right now? Her family said again and again at the funeral that Maxine loved her "precious Lord" more than anything, and that love led her to invest her life in the people around her. Even when she was in pain due to osteoporosis, she created homemade cards on her computer to send to people at church to encourage them. Opinionated, loyal, and always interested in others, she weekly called her sister in Memphis to catch up on life, attended church every Sunday to experience Christian fellowship and hug her friends, and kept an angel collection of over 200 figurines. I imagine these heavenly beings comforted her and made her smile each day.

When she passed away last Friday, I found myself dwelling on the last time I saw her. It was a week ago Sunday. Looking beautiful in her fashionable clothes and jewelry, though frail with a walker to guide her and her husband's steady arm always close by, Maxine worshipped Jesus. Did she know it was her last time to worship publicly with her church family? Did she know that her final days were ahead?

After church, Maxine turned to the row where my family sits. Right behind hers. She hugged my sister and I and complimented us on our dresses. Then she told us how beautiful she thought we were, and how she always loved to look at us and watch us on Sundays. We told her how beautiful SHE looked (and really, we meant it). Then her husband Jim took her arm and led her home. And several days later, Jesus took her arm and led her to her final home.

The funeral was an incredible testimony to a life well-lived for Jesus and for his glory, not spent on selfish ambition or wasteful activity, but spent on others. Spent befriending others. Loving others. Taking care of her children and grandchildren. Encouraging and complimenting others.

I found myself journaling when she died, pondering how I might spend my last day on earth. If I knew it was my last 24 hours to live, what would I do? Today at the funeral I realized that though this is an interesting and worthwhile question to ask, the better question is this. Knowing that you DON'T know today is your last day, how will you live? Maxine didn't know. She lived for years never knowing when she would die. But she lived those years AS IF death was imminent. She lived in the moment, for others, as a radiant sparkle in a dark world.

So many people at the funeral testified to the influence Maxine had on their lives. Her children told story after story about how much their mother meant to them and to everyone who knew her.

It makes me glad that we go to funerals. Glad to celebrate what should be only tears and loss. Maxine's death was a great loss to a world that loved her. Yet, when her savior pulled her into his arms last Friday, the purpose of her life was complete. She had lived for his glory and died a "good and faithful servant." People remember her example and will be challenged to spend their last days in the same manner. They will want to praise the God who Maxine loved and lived for, who she devoted her life to.

It's an ordinary day passing away, but extraordinary people make them timeless. Maxine was an extraordinary woman serving an even more extraordinary God. What an honor to have known her.